survivor guilt

from by the Doorman



recorded in the fall of 2004? directly into a computer microphone


on behalf of my mother
son please, go away
I saved the day after tomorrow
but she wouldn't stay
not for longer
not for just one minute

on behalf of my sister
please girl, go away
I planted the seed
and the tree blew the storm away
or the storm blew the tree away

we are clowns in the constellation
we deprive ourselves of entertainment
in rejection

on behalf of my father
cut down the tree
and bury me in the sea
throw my ashes in the oceans

and they told her to leave
and they called her names, called her a thief
not everyone has planned
his for his own luck
what the fuck


from halfway house, released December 1, 2019


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